i can't adapt to the sudden changes...
Thursday, November 12, 2009
i really felt like crap today..but didn't feel so bad after going to ade's house(:girlfrens were there so we were all super hyper(:but it shan't be written here what we did(:it's a secret(:
i think i'm finally giving up!!yes i surrender,i don't want to end up in the same state as 9 months ago..so yes..i know it'll be hard but i gotta let go sooner of later right??as long as i have my girlfriends around i'll be fine..and i have to look for a part time job asap(:to keep my mind occupied(:
msged cousin today and i felt so much better after chatting with him(:luckily he's always there for me i feel so great after talking to him..i swear i was about to cry today but when i chatted with him i was smiling and immediately i didn't feel like crying anymore..you're a great guy cousin!!the girl who's going to be with you is going to be lucky(:he's the only one that i really listen to..and he makes me ponder and i'll then make the right decision(:i'm just stubborn to my other friends..as per mormal!!!!!i'm a freaking taurus ok!!what do you expect??(:
but plankton i think i still have to tell you right??or not it's not fair..ok let's make a deal,if you go for the chalet i'll tell you..and if you don't,fate is telling me that we're not meant to be(:so ya..let's leave it to fate(:
10:17 PM
hold me tight at....
i didn't want to wake up from that dream of mine...
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
yes i dreamt that his ex-girlfriend called me on the phone..and she was like cursing me at first and i didn't know why..then she was like i hated you that night when he told me he liked you and he was so depressed that he smoked and drank with me..and my reaction was omg!!!!!!!!!ok relax...but before that,i did something super bad to him..i feel so bad eventhough it was just a dream...so bad i'm so not going to treat you like the dream(:i promise(:
o'levels science paper 1 today..after this paper i'll be able to breather properly(:
and mothertongue tmr..i hope i get to see him later(:i miss him(:
and monday it's lc and freedom baby!!yeah(:
p/s:my mum has officially pissed me off today..i have freaking o's today and she tells me to wait with my dog outside ntuc and then go meet ade..i better not to be late..or else!!!!!!!!!!!argh!!!i so have to score on this paper!!!!!!!!!!!!argh!!!!!!!!!!!the irritatingness(is there such word)
11:11 AM
hold me tight at....
i'm in love with.....
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
ok i do feel weird saying my own name when i talk about her...it's like our names are already similar and now the spelling..super weird!!but super cool also(:when i was talking about KESHA to my sister,she was like stopped saying her name,it sounds like you're talking about yourself...yeah i found it super weird too..'like kesha is an awesome singer,kesha is new' and we were even watching her tik tok music video on mtv(:the song is really addictive i listen to it every now and then...(:i hope she going to have an album soon(:her song tick tock is only a single!!i hope she becomes really popular(:
Anyway,enough about her....i'm sleeping over at Ade's house on monday(:yay(:and on graduation day,i'll be going to school with them(:i'm also having luch with chris,sarah and diyanah on that day(:and maybe after lunch i'll go meet belo sis and vivi after that(:but no promises girls but i'll let you know if i'm going ok???(:
chatted with Ade just now(:i told her about the chalet details(:hehe and told her that maybe mr...is going(:then she was like i must make your two together(:must ask yuxuan help also(:thanks girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hehe i'm happy already(:i really hope he goes(:please..please go(:
hehe paper 1 for science tmr..luckily ade told me the paper is at 2pm tmr..i thought it was at 8am...aiyou,i've got to stop being blur...
anyway nights(:i'm going to study physics(:chem tmr!!!it's so torturous!!just one more day...bear with it(:
p/s:reborning my hair this friday(:belo sis is following me(:hehe love ya babe(:
9:27 PM
hold me tight at....
i need to go to school tmr!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!no i'm already in the mood after O's and i still have to freaking studying for science paper 1??just bear with it...just a last major paper and mt, my burden will be off my shoulders(:the benefit of taking mlb..fail also nevermind(:
the chalet is on the 27,28 and 29 of november for ade,yuxuan,elin,crystal,may(:family chalet with other parents(:luckily galfrens are coming(:you guys are coming right??don't leave me in a lurch ok(:
mahjong session and movie marathons(:and bbq!!!!!!!!!!yay(:mr..might be coming let's see if he come ok?(:i hope he does but if he comes...haiz...we have nothing to talk about already):but neverming i'll try again(:
MY SISTER IS COMING BACK FROM australia already(:YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
souvenirs(:i miss her(:
i talked to,
mum about..what if i fail o's..she said if i only passed 1 or 2 subjects..hello aes(4/2,5/1,5/2)if i passed 3 subjects(private o's,combine cert),four or five subjects(poly here i come!!)so ya got it all planned out already..
at least my parents are supportive of me(:and if i fail o's,i'll still be able to go home(:
i know i'm failing one subject already...AMATHS...yay at least i was honest with my parents telling them that i would fail this subject unless the bellcurve helps me..so all the ppl who did amaths paper hope you guys did very badly so that you guys won't spoil the bellcurve haha(:
yes christmas at grandma's house..bitch will be there,no choice i'm not eating anything that she has cook..she might just poison me(:and yes i told my mum and dad straight to their face that i'll never forgive her!!so yeah..what's the point of hiding my hatred from my parents??but i'll still have to respect her in words of my mother..kiss her when you see her wish her merry x'mas..i'll do that of course(:but i won't talk to her after greeting her..i told my mum i'm not staying at her house already if they want to..please carry on..x'mas morning i'll just cab there ok??
oh crap..why did i have to know this aunty??
1:07 AM
hold me tight at....
a happy day(:
Monday, November 9, 2009
One-i slept around 3 plus this morning and i woke up early..9 plus(:
Two-bought my prom dress already and i love it loads!!!!!!thanks mummy(:
Three-mummy an i had subway for lunch(:with subway cookies(:mummy loved them alot:P
told my mum about J though,my mum didn't like her from the start...which bestfriend tells your crush she likes him and tell you that your boyfriend likes her:(ya...
will upload the pictures of my dress after prom(:
p/s:miss you MR.....
3:11 PM
hold me tight at....
a bestfriend..
J i used to trust you so much..
first you told my crush you liked him in sec 2 then you told me in sec 3 that my boyfriend liked you..bestfriends since pri school(:i trusted you alot..thank god hillary and sarah told me to leave you..and they told me you were not worth being bestfriends...
but i can't help but telling you about my life and worrying about you(:i guess i still treat you like a friend even after hurting me alot....i even told you about my present life now(:
i guess you'll always be in my life no matter what(:i hope you'll do well for n's(:since you wished me luck for o's, then good luck to you friend..i don't think we'll be bestfriends again but we'll still be friends ok?i know i don't mean much to you already..your boyfriend is more important but i don't care already..you made the decision 2 years ago and i'm just abiding by it(:hope you last long with him okies??3 months already the longest relationship you have been in(:and at least now your boyfriend is a good to you...you made the right choice at last(:and i'm glad
but you didn't tell me that you shifted house..and now you're near to my grandmother's house..punggol??haiz..guess you still didn't change that's why we can only be friends(:telling other friends and not me!!i used to tell you everything.. you even forgot my handphone no....haizz..
WELL,it was nice knowing you..you're a nice friend but i can't get too close to you..i don't want to get hurt again...
so long miss Jwc....you thought me how to be stronger and i thank you for that(:
p/s:J knows who mr...is,her mum is close friends with his mum...but my mum is closer with his mum(:
p/s/s:i can't wait for the chalets to begin!!i have like 3 freaking chalets from november to december(:yes...and J,you're not invited..sarah and hillary doesn't like you..i'm sorry..so it'll just be chris,sarah,hillary,apple..maybe diyanah and me(:hehe it will be damn fun(: my pri school clique(:
2:12 AM
hold me tight at....
i miss my dearest sister,
Sunday, November 8, 2009
KELLY ANN DRYSDALE....
ass hurry up come back from Australia!!!!i miss talking to you..so many things have happened since you left aussie,you're normally the first to know,now it's like you're th last to know):i need your help too(:hurry up sis(:i think you're like leaving Aussie either tmr or tuesday!!!i can hardly wait(:
i hope you won't come back empty handed!!and i want to thank my sis bestfriend Asmin for getting me a gift(:yay(:
shit!!i haven't cleaned my room yet..and i have 3 more o-level papers to go..science paper 1,mother tongue paper 1 and 2 and,finally mt listening compre....
oh nevermind i'll clean it after O's..i so need to sleep now,i need to wake up early tmr!!going shopping with mummy(:
i do hate her sometimes,but i love her dearly still(:
and if she ever reads this..she should know already...so who cares(:
p/s:i can't believe that i posted like three posts today..wth??i'm not so lazy afterall(:
p/s/s:i miss the 2 ppl that are the most important to me in the world(:please don't leave me in a lurch again...
11:31 PM
hold me tight at....
i can't adapt to the sudden changes...
Thursday, November 12, 2009
i really felt like crap today..but didn't feel so bad after going to ade's house(:girlfrens were there so we were all super hyper(:but it shan't be written here what we did(:it's a secret(:
i think i'm finally giving up!!yes i surrender,i don't want to end up in the same state as 9 months ago..so yes..i know it'll be hard but i gotta let go sooner of later right??as long as i have my girlfriends around i'll be fine..and i have to look for a part time job asap(:to keep my mind occupied(:
msged cousin today and i felt so much better after chatting with him(:luckily he's always there for me i feel so great after talking to him..i swear i was about to cry today but when i chatted with him i was smiling and immediately i didn't feel like crying anymore..you're a great guy cousin!!the girl who's going to be with you is going to be lucky(:he's the only one that i really listen to..and he makes me ponder and i'll then make the right decision(:i'm just stubborn to my other friends..as per mormal!!!!!i'm a freaking taurus ok!!what do you expect??(:
but plankton i think i still have to tell you right??or not it's not fair..ok let's make a deal,if you go for the chalet i'll tell you..and if you don't,fate is telling me that we're not meant to be(:so ya..let's leave it to fate(:
10:17 PM
hold me tight...
i didn't want to wake up from that dream of mine...
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
yes i dreamt that his ex-girlfriend called me on the phone..and she was like cursing me at first and i didn't know why..then she was like i hated you that night when he told me he liked you and he was so depressed that he smoked and drank with me..and my reaction was omg!!!!!!!!!ok relax...but before that,i did something super bad to him..i feel so bad eventhough it was just a dream...so bad i'm so not going to treat you like the dream(:i promise(:
o'levels science paper 1 today..after this paper i'll be able to breather properly(:
and mothertongue tmr..i hope i get to see him later(:i miss him(:
and monday it's lc and freedom baby!!yeah(:
p/s:my mum has officially pissed me off today..i have freaking o's today and she tells me to wait with my dog outside ntuc and then go meet ade..i better not to be late..or else!!!!!!!!!!!argh!!!i so have to score on this paper!!!!!!!!!!!!argh!!!!!!!!!!!the irritatingness(is there such word)
11:11 AM
hold me tight...
i'm in love with.....
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
ok i do feel weird saying my own name when i talk about her...it's like our names are already similar and now the spelling..super weird!!but super cool also(:when i was talking about KESHA to my sister,she was like stopped saying her name,it sounds like you're talking about yourself...yeah i found it super weird too..'like kesha is an awesome singer,kesha is new' and we were even watching her tik tok music video on mtv(:the song is really addictive i listen to it every now and then...(:i hope she going to have an album soon(:her song tick tock is only a single!!i hope she becomes really popular(:
Anyway,enough about her....i'm sleeping over at Ade's house on monday(:yay(:and on graduation day,i'll be going to school with them(:i'm also having luch with chris,sarah and diyanah on that day(:and maybe after lunch i'll go meet belo sis and vivi after that(:but no promises girls but i'll let you know if i'm going ok???(:
chatted with Ade just now(:i told her about the chalet details(:hehe and told her that maybe mr...is going(:then she was like i must make your two together(:must ask yuxuan help also(:thanks girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hehe i'm happy already(:i really hope he goes(:please..please go(:
hehe paper 1 for science tmr..luckily ade told me the paper is at 2pm tmr..i thought it was at 8am...aiyou,i've got to stop being blur...
anyway nights(:i'm going to study physics(:chem tmr!!!it's so torturous!!just one more day...bear with it(:
p/s:reborning my hair this friday(:belo sis is following me(:hehe love ya babe(:
9:27 PM
hold me tight...
i need to go to school tmr!!!!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!no i'm already in the mood after O's and i still have to freaking studying for science paper 1??just bear with it...just a last major paper and mt, my burden will be off my shoulders(:the benefit of taking mlb..fail also nevermind(:
the chalet is on the 27,28 and 29 of november for ade,yuxuan,elin,crystal,may(:family chalet with other parents(:luckily galfrens are coming(:you guys are coming right??don't leave me in a lurch ok(:
mahjong session and movie marathons(:and bbq!!!!!!!!!!yay(:mr..might be coming let's see if he come ok?(:i hope he does but if he comes...haiz...we have nothing to talk about already):but neverming i'll try again(:
MY SISTER IS COMING BACK FROM australia already(:YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
souvenirs(:i miss her(:
i talked to,
mum about..what if i fail o's..she said if i only passed 1 or 2 subjects..hello aes(4/2,5/1,5/2)if i passed 3 subjects(private o's,combine cert),four or five subjects(poly here i come!!)so ya got it all planned out already..
at least my parents are supportive of me(:and if i fail o's,i'll still be able to go home(:
i know i'm failing one subject already...AMATHS...yay at least i was honest with my parents telling them that i would fail this subject unless the bellcurve helps me..so all the ppl who did amaths paper hope you guys did very badly so that you guys won't spoil the bellcurve haha(:
yes christmas at grandma's house..bitch will be there,no choice i'm not eating anything that she has cook..she might just poison me(:and yes i told my mum and dad straight to their face that i'll never forgive her!!so yeah..what's the point of hiding my hatred from my parents??but i'll still have to respect her in words of my mother..kiss her when you see her wish her merry x'mas..i'll do that of course(:but i won't talk to her after greeting her..i told my mum i'm not staying at her house already if they want to..please carry on..x'mas morning i'll just cab there ok??
oh crap..why did i have to know this aunty??
1:07 AM
hold me tight...
a happy day(:
Monday, November 9, 2009
One-i slept around 3 plus this morning and i woke up early..9 plus(:
Two-bought my prom dress already and i love it loads!!!!!!thanks mummy(:
Three-mummy an i had subway for lunch(:with subway cookies(:mummy loved them alot:P
told my mum about J though,my mum didn't like her from the start...which bestfriend tells your crush she likes him and tell you that your boyfriend likes her:(ya...
will upload the pictures of my dress after prom(:
p/s:miss you MR.....
3:11 PM
hold me tight...
a bestfriend..
J i used to trust you so much..
first you told my crush you liked him in sec 2 then you told me in sec 3 that my boyfriend liked you..bestfriends since pri school(:i trusted you alot..thank god hillary and sarah told me to leave you..and they told me you were not worth being bestfriends...
but i can't help but telling you about my life and worrying about you(:i guess i still treat you like a friend even after hurting me alot....i even told you about my present life now(:
i guess you'll always be in my life no matter what(:i hope you'll do well for n's(:since you wished me luck for o's, then good luck to you friend..i don't think we'll be bestfriends again but we'll still be friends ok?i know i don't mean much to you already..your boyfriend is more important but i don't care already..you made the decision 2 years ago and i'm just abiding by it(:hope you last long with him okies??3 months already the longest relationship you have been in(:and at least now your boyfriend is a good to you...you made the right choice at last(:and i'm glad
but you didn't tell me that you shifted house..and now you're near to my grandmother's house..punggol??haiz..guess you still didn't change that's why we can only be friends(:telling other friends and not me!!i used to tell you everything.. you even forgot my handphone no....haizz..
WELL,it was nice knowing you..you're a nice friend but i can't get too close to you..i don't want to get hurt again...
so long miss Jwc....you thought me how to be stronger and i thank you for that(:
p/s:J knows who mr...is,her mum is close friends with his mum...but my mum is closer with his mum(:
p/s/s:i can't wait for the chalets to begin!!i have like 3 freaking chalets from november to december(:yes...and J,you're not invited..sarah and hillary doesn't like you..i'm sorry..so it'll just be chris,sarah,hillary,apple..maybe diyanah and me(:hehe it will be damn fun(: my pri school clique(:
2:12 AM
hold me tight...
i miss my dearest sister,
Sunday, November 8, 2009
KELLY ANN DRYSDALE....
ass hurry up come back from Australia!!!!i miss talking to you..so many things have happened since you left aussie,you're normally the first to know,now it's like you're th last to know):i need your help too(:hurry up sis(:i think you're like leaving Aussie either tmr or tuesday!!!i can hardly wait(:
i hope you won't come back empty handed!!and i want to thank my sis bestfriend Asmin for getting me a gift(:yay(:
shit!!i haven't cleaned my room yet..and i have 3 more o-level papers to go..science paper 1,mother tongue paper 1 and 2 and,finally mt listening compre....
oh nevermind i'll clean it after O's..i so need to sleep now,i need to wake up early tmr!!going shopping with mummy(:
i do hate her sometimes,but i love her dearly still(:
and if she ever reads this..she should know already...so who cares(:
p/s:i can't believe that i posted like three posts today..wth??i'm not so lazy afterall(:
p/s/s:i miss the 2 ppl that are the most important to me in the world(:please don't leave me in a lurch again...
11:31 PM
hold me tight...
